Auntie Em! Auntie Em! It’s a twister! It’s a twister!
I feel like I’ve been dropped into the middle of a tornado, spinning out of control for weeks if not months!
I know that the day-to-day is drowning enough, but then it’s all the extras- my children’s sports activities, birthday parties, holiday events, school obligations…that goes full circle for each member of my family.
So last week I tapped out- I stopped giving every second of every free moment I had to everyone else! We declined on invitations for parties and events, and yet still we ran the entire weekend- straight into Monday!
Where does the time freaking go? When did Friday night spiral out of control until Monday morning landed in my lap! How did all that time come and go, and the laundry still be in need of folding? How did all those hours pass me by, and I only got less than an hour to myself? When did it become “babysitting” for my husband when he has our children?
Why is it my fault the baby started the dishwasher with a cell phone in it? Why is it my fault the baby found that perfect object to flush down the toilet? Why is it my fault no one likes the socks they have in their drawers?
I hear myself talking to myself much like my own mother did. ” I might as well give up”, “No one gives a shit but me”, “Go ahead kill each other for all I care”, “Wait until your father gets home! (wait, I’m the mean one…) “Is anyone even LISTENING?”
I have to say, if it weren’t for social media and its ability to make life seem like one big happy event, people would actually see the real shit that goes on in my home, and if I had to guess many of yours too! But again, I’ll be the mean one and call you all out on your happy go lucky every day is rainbows and unicorns bull crap! Life is beautifully stressful and every waking minute is stretched to its utter limits.
When did it become so hard to just stay in for a night? When did it become a miracle to get home before the moon has risen into the sky?
When will this tornado stop spinning? When it stops and spits me out, will I be complaining that my life is boring and in need of some excitement?
People keep telling me this time goes by so fast- hold onto it, it will be gone before you know it. I’m just concerned that I’m spinning too fast and not enjoying the ride at times.