By Samantha Betti
When I was asked to be a guest blogger for the month of September I was so thrilled and thankful for the opportunity. I don’t have the slightest idea what blogging truly entails. I also had no idea where to start, but I decided I was up for the challenge. I thought for sure I would write a blurb about something running or mom related, after all it is called RunItLikeAMom. I thought endlessly about what I would say and what it would be about….fitting running into my endlessly crazy and stressful days, setting examples and installing healthy habits with my daughter, completing my first (of now many) half marathons. But last night as I continued to think about it, I realized that I finally had the chance to say what I’ve been wanting to say after so many posts I’ve previously read….Thank you for creating this awesome blog. Thank you for putting your lives out there for the world to peep into. Thank you for the laughs, the wonders and the tears (yes I’ve cried at times).
As a young mom, I find it extremely hard to fit in to certain settings. As a fairly insecure person, I find it even harder to not constantly feel like I’m being judged, especially with parenting. Put those together and you get a young mom who is constantly second guessing every decision and action she makes on a daily basis. I should probably mention that I’m extremely over analytical as well, not a good combination. I keep myself up at night replaying scenarios from the day or weeks before trying to figure out what I did wrong and how to handle it better next time. I pray that everything I do, don’t do or did wrong won’t have a horrible impact on my daughter, and that she will learn from my mistakes.
My daughter has never been what some would call an “easy” child. She tortured me for my entire pregnancy and after giving us a pretty big scare at 26 weeks decided to come charging into the world 3 weeks early. She never stops moving, has an attitude like a 16-year-old (no idea where she gets that from…) and most days is too smart for her own good. She will challenge everything you say, has a remark to go along with every statement and if you’re not careful she will be ruling the world by tomorrow morning. Simple tasks like going out to eat or taking her grocery shopping used to stress me out. I was always so worried about her acting out and being judged. Finding local moms to spend time with and talk with seemed impossible. I loved being a mom and loved my daughter even more. But I found parenting to be the biggest challenge I had ever taken on. And most days it scared the crap out of me.
It wasn’t until I found RunItLikeAMom that I realized, most of what I was going through with my daughter was all so normal.
Every mom has days where they want to throw in the towel and every mom reacts in ways they wish they could take back. Reading all your blogs reminds me every day that there’s no manual on how to run it like a mom. We are all just taking it one step at a time with the same goal in mind; to cross the finish line of raising a strong minded, whole hearted, happy, healthy individual and being proud of the job we’ve done.
So thank you. Thank you for putting yourselves out there. Thank you for helping me through many long, hard, stressful days. And thank you for allowing me to be a part of it all.