So here it is. Yes, come November we will be a family of five. I’ve liked to say “we brought back a souvenir from our trip to Costa Rica,” or another favorite, “Happy Birthday, Dear!” I promise nothing is in the water too.
Secretly, I am excited to have a new baby in my arms. After having 18 months of horrible pregnancies, I finally have been able to bask in what it feels like to love being pregnant. Mind you, I desperately miss sleeping on my stomach, and all of the ways my body used to function, but boy are our bodies cool. The way we can grow a human inside of us just blows my mind.
This time around, there are a lot of different emotions I have been going through to wrap my only child brain around a large family, for me that is. Will my husband and I be able to handle all of this? No more divide and conquer, we may be the conquered. Can my body handle another baby? Well, so far so good, and definitely a different experience than the other two. Having a c-section for the third time, my first being an emergency, and second elected, will this one go as smoothly as the last? So many things have changed in the two years since having Fin, what will my new obstacles be, and what will be my new mommy loves?
In a short amount of time I’ve learned a lot about how much I can truly handle. In all the chaos I have found I am most at peace. The world can be swirling around me, and I come alive. My senses are more attuned and I am ready to conquer whatever may come my way. Here comes a new adventure and I can’t wait to hoist the sails and set sail with my new family of five! Oh, and it’s a girl too!!!