I’m sorry, I’m just going to warn all readers that this post isn’t to confuse you on how much I love my children. The truth is, there isn’t a thing I wouldn’t do for them, however, after the last two weeks of being together – I need a vacation!
We have spent hours together everyday. I mean like every waking second of every single freaking day! I have not taken a shower without someone crying or tattling from the other side of the shower curtain. I have been limited in my ability to multitask, and, with three children under the age of 5, it is almost completely impossible to be calm and on my game at all times. They are so intense when you are one on three! I swear it’s like one needs a drink, the other needs his ass wiped, the other is so helpless he lives in the crook of your arm, which leaves me to function with one hand more or less 99% of the freaking time.
I have spent endless minutes and hours cleaning up behind the little bastards. I have spent hours in the kitchen tending to their cravings and inconsistent meal patterns. I have spent hours talking to myself about why it’s so hard to remember to shut the door behind you when you leave the house, or what we do with our clothes after our shower, or where we put our plate when we are done with dinner. I mean I seriously asked my five-year old if I stuttered after I had to repeat myself like twelve times regarding the directions I gave him. I feel like I’m constantly bitching. I mean, I know I am constantly bitching. I even get tired of hearing myself bitch. I feel like I am talking to the wall!
I remember my mom asking herself if she was talking to the wall, so I know what I am going through is normal – at least for my family. I mean, honestly, how many mothers or fathers out there feel like they are not being heard or not getting through? What reassurance do we have that our children will still thrive in their adult life if we don’t ride their ass all the time?
What do you do to keep the bickering at a minimum? What do you do to stay balanced in your mood swings when you are at your breaking point? How do you keep yourself from being “that mom” who complains 24/7?