I have a confession. I can’t stand running these days! I physically can’t stand the movements, and I mentally stress about the after effects on my body! I was in such a great place with running before I got pregnant with my last son. It’s the craziest thing. I think I want to run, and moments after I start I convince myself that I can’t do it!
I know the physical stress is due to the extra weight I am balancing and working on losing. But how can I lose the weight if I feel physical pain after and can hardly walk? Since I had Dean, my body has been hurting in ways it never had before. I wake up in the morning and can hardly make an arch in my feet. My ankles don’t flex or bend, and it takes a few minutes before things move correctly. I know I can push myself through, but is it worth it? I wake up in the night to nurse and my fingers feel double jointed.
I had planned on participating in a friendly 5k this past Sunday. I laid awake the entire night before with anxiety and concern for the way I would feel after I pushed through. My husband thinks I’m crazy when I return from my small runs, and he watches me hobble around for the days. I am trying to just push…until it feels good again. But I’m starting to think that it isn’t a good idea.
I know I have a lot of inflammation between my bones and joints, which is also causing me to lag behind in my (Forest Gump run athons), but since I am nursing I’m struggling to find the balance in natural treatments that won’t affect the baby.
I’m sorry to report that my mission to re-establish my relationship with exercise is not moving as smoothly as I would like it to.
I’m sorry, I am officially waving the white flag and coming clean, I am struggling to RUN.
I’m sorry to report that I’m not snapping right back.
I’m sorry to report that I have no desire to run on the tread mill…better known as my dread mill.
I need your help! Please tell me this has happened to you! Please tell me this will pass! Please tell me this is just a runner’s block!
WHAT DO I DO? I KNOW I CAN LOVE IT AGAIN, BUT HOW DO I START OVER?
LOST, HURT RUNNER- HELP FIND HER!