Been feeling like I’ve been hit by a bus these last few days. As my third trimester comes to an end, I can’t help but panic about one thing- WHAT IF THIS BABY STAYS FOR THE FULL 40 WEEKS!!
I have been so blessed to have this last opportunity to bring another life in to the world, however, I’m not going to sugar coat anything- this pregnancy has been the hardest pregnancy yet! I have tried to take each and every ache and pain with a grain of sugar. I have tried to put on a brave face to those kind enough to ask how I’m feeling, but behind closed doors – I am MISERABLE!
I have gained more weight this time around, and YES, I know how hard each inch and pound will be to get off and back into its correct location. My hips have been numb for weeks due to my little 8 pounder sitting on my sciatic nerve. My blood pressure has been all over the map, and with it brought a mercy run to the E.R for relief from a migraine that just about crippled me for way over 3 days. Non-stress tests that have been done weekly for the last 8 weeks, and even though the list could continue to grow longer, I will stop with the most recent – MY GOD WITH THESE CONTRACTIONS!
They are very REAL and VERY painful and happening every few minutes. At my appointment today, the monitor was tracking them like crazy and so was the nurse, however the doctor said with a smile…
“O.K so a loose centimeter, the end is near- only a few more weeks!”
Again, as the hot tears run down my cheeks, I think to myself, “PLEASE DON’T GO THE FULL 40 WEEKS!!!” As much as I’m loving this miracle, I’m so very tired and so very ready to be done! He is large and I’ve never gone the full 40!!
The contractions are still every few minutes, my hips are burning and it feels like my female parts are on fire and being ripped apart. As I write this, I’m thinking when do I know it’s time to go in? How long do I go feeling these contractions before I blow the whistle? Did the doctor just send me home to ride out some extra time until I progress more? Why would he do that? I’m a c-section? Why do I have to labor in order to get this show on the road?
Moral of my post: HE’S COMING AND IT CAN’T/WON”T Be Long!